Baby steps

Warning: Sorry. This post might sound a bit cheesy but I've been wanting to write about it since day 1 (heh).

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(lets rewind a little bit shall we?)

A few months ago, I was having a hard time dealing with my previous relationship..with the situation I'm in, all the stories that I've heard from both sides, the advices from friends etc..Semua benda pun dah jadi tak betul sebab I macam stress sangat dengar cerita-cerita yang datang dari telinga I nie (masuk telinga kanan tapi tak boleh nak keluar telinga kiri..all I've heard was negative!). Yelahhh, because I was trying to save a 3++ years relationship. Until at one point I started to give up and just go with the flow. I said to myself just wait for a few more months then, baru I make the decision. When I went to the land down under, at that time I said to myself that was the right time to settled everything. (there's a story behind this trip but I just won't reveal it for a personal matters). Where I reach to a point that my level of kesabaran at that time dah sampai tahap maximum and I couldn't take it anymore. So, as I return home..I said to myself that I'm gonna closed this book and just start a 'new book'. (I do a lot of math here you know...heh)

I did not regret at all that I made the decision to end it because I knew that 'something' or maybe 'somebody' was waiting for me. I can smell it (ceyyy..poyo jer! haha). I was so happy to begin the not-so-new journey. My friends were there for me when I needed the most. I have someone to pinjam dia punya bahu untuk menangis! haha, gained a few kgs and still do now (and my mum keep telling me to go exercise because she risau that I will gain more weight and become fatty fatty boom boom...hahaha), my jeans fits me nicely. I slowly started to move on. I slowly forget all the things that I've been through all those years and I slowly threw all the things that reminds me of the relationship. Everything started to faded away, blew by the wind.

I am a happy girl.