I think part of me said go for it and part of me said 'chillex' at the moment. A few days back I was not the person I wanna it to be. I was so down but I keep it all to myself. I think too much, I forgot all those meals that I love, I keep going out, I can count how many times I talk to my mum etc. (yes! now you see how unhappy I am kan?). But seriously I think I lost some weight and I look so sick and ugly. I hate that look. I look in a mirror and said this time I have to just not think too much and just go with the flow. Just follow what your heart says you to do as long as you are happy.
Time passes by and what the hell am I still thinking about it. So to let everything go, I lepak with my friends (girl/guys) and even with their boyfriends and took their advice. Jot down in my mind what did I do, what should I do, why and how am I going to do it. I need the spirit back. I didn't close the whole chapter yet because I still need to know what's the outcome of it (yes, I have the right to be worried but no, I don't wanna care about it too much because if I did it will hurt myself).
The day Aishah fly to aussie is the day, I remember when the day I send you off. See, I think about it again. Yes, I cried too much sampai dah takde air mata. I thought the day you went back was the 'titisan-titisan terakhir' but nooo..I didn't know that am gonna cry that hard for Aishah too. She was and still a good friend but sometimes annoying haha (sorry sha..i love you!). She always marah me when ada sleepover dekat rumah dia and I balik awal. Heh. Eh, asal tertukar topic. Damn..nie mesti sebab ter-missed Aishah called dekat skype semalam. Hm...oh well~ see you in June!
Anyway, the day Aishah went to Aussie was the day I said to myself to go out and have fun! See lots more people then you will know the fun of it and that is when I decide to asked 'them' and make my move. In a split second..I didn't think about it that much (tipu la kalau tak fikir gak kan) and no, I am not ashamed of doing it. Baru la thrill nama nye haha :p and thanks to them also..I am back on track hehe. I am just happy the way I am right now. weee :)
I don't know where the future will take me/you/us. Only time will tell. Give me time to heal all those things. Ok, I'm gonna end this thing now. I don't wanna talk about it at the moment. Its time to go out and meet new people.
Yes! that's the spirit Seri. huhu
Time passes by and what the hell am I still thinking about it. So to let everything go, I lepak with my friends (girl/guys) and even with their boyfriends and took their advice. Jot down in my mind what did I do, what should I do, why and how am I going to do it. I need the spirit back. I didn't close the whole chapter yet because I still need to know what's the outcome of it (yes, I have the right to be worried but no, I don't wanna care about it too much because if I did it will hurt myself).
The day Aishah fly to aussie is the day, I remember when the day I send you off. See, I think about it again. Yes, I cried too much sampai dah takde air mata. I thought the day you went back was the 'titisan-titisan terakhir' but nooo..I didn't know that am gonna cry that hard for Aishah too. She was and still a good friend but sometimes annoying haha (sorry sha..i love you!). She always marah me when ada sleepover dekat rumah dia and I balik awal. Heh. Eh, asal tertukar topic. Damn..nie mesti sebab ter-missed Aishah called dekat skype semalam. Hm...oh well~ see you in June!
Anyway, the day Aishah went to Aussie was the day I said to myself to go out and have fun! See lots more people then you will know the fun of it and that is when I decide to asked 'them' and make my move. In a split second..I didn't think about it that much (tipu la kalau tak fikir gak kan) and no, I am not ashamed of doing it. Baru la thrill nama nye haha :p and thanks to them also..I am back on track hehe. I am just happy the way I am right now. weee :)
I don't know where the future will take me/you/us. Only time will tell. Give me time to heal all those things. Ok, I'm gonna end this thing now. I don't wanna talk about it at the moment. Its time to go out and meet new people.
Yes! that's the spirit Seri. huhu
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go go go seri!!!!!!!! im with u allll theeeeee wayyyyy!!!!!
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